The last few years I had such Christmas spirit – it was just magical. This year I am really having a hard time getting my mojo going. I think this is impart because it was a time intensive year at work. We’ve just had to minimize everything to the bare essentials. Perhaps it’s just backlash from the year.
Perhaps the un-xmas like weather has something to do with it.
So, as I write this, today is operation holiday spirit (but having a hard time rallying).
This morning I cuddled with Nathanel for about 10 minutes before we got up and going. Cuddling with Nathanael is truly precious. I guess if that does make one feel in the holiday spirit, nothing will.
Nathanael also read us 2 books tonight – he’s really getting on a roll with it and his confidence just shown through. He’s proud and he should be.
I do sometime wonder the effects adoption will have on Nathanael. He’s always been a bit sensitive to sound/noise/light – and he demonstrated that on Saturday. He’s done really well in floor hockey and on sat he sort of crumbled. We missed 2 weeks (thanksgiving and then mom needed a break) – anyway, he just could not do it. He clung to me and just could not separte. We encouraged but did turn into assholios. In the end, we left – it wasn’t worth it. But, I was sad because he had enjoyed the previous weeks and I hate to see him in such an obvious state of discomfort. I think he’s doing much better in more stressful environments but we are still in the early stages of him adapting to these situations. I do think this is a manifestation of our relatively mild adoption issues and if we go slowly, we can work through it.
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